{"id":1475,"date":"2020-05-15T18:20:31","date_gmt":"2020-05-16T03:20:31","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/opinion.alaskapolicy.net\/pardonme\/?p=1475"},"modified":"2020-05-24T10:46:58","modified_gmt":"2020-05-24T19:46:58","slug":"meditation-lamed-vov","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/opinion.alaskapolicy.net\/pardonme\/meditation-lamed-vov\/","title":{"rendered":"Meditation Lamed Vov"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"alignright size-medium wp-image-1478\" src=\"https:\/\/opinion.alaskapolicy.net\/pardonme\/wp-content\/uploads\/Screen-Shot-2020-05-24-at-11.45.23-AM-193x300.png\" alt=\"\" width=\"193\" height=\"300\" srcset=\"https:\/\/opinion.alaskapolicy.net\/pardonme\/wp-content\/uploads\/Screen-Shot-2020-05-24-at-11.45.23-AM-193x300.png 193w, https:\/\/opinion.alaskapolicy.net\/pardonme\/wp-content\/uploads\/Screen-Shot-2020-05-24-at-11.45.23-AM.png 334w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 193px) 100vw, 193px\" \/>Sometimes it seems just so much easier to die.<\/p>\n<p>I am guilty of what others did.<\/p>\n<p>I am guilty of what others didn&#8217;t do.<\/p>\n<p>I am guilty of what I never intended to say and never said, but what others thought I meant.<\/p>\n<p>I am guilty of not understanding how very guilty I am.<\/p>\n<p>I am a source of unpleasantness that increases in unpleasantness the more I fail to comprehend that others find me unpleasant because they thought I meant something I did not mean, and find any attempt to explain the misunderstanding as, of course, unpleasant.<\/p>\n<p>It makes no never mind how I feel or what I did, and any suggestion that any of the foregoing is true, is of course, evidence of my guilt.<\/p>\n<p>I don&#8217;t relish hanging. Nor death by Covid19, come to think of that. But as I slowly disappear, sometimes I wonder if the process can be simply hastened.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;If you only calmed down!!!&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>If I only wasn&#8217;t &#8230;<\/p>\n<p>.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Sometimes it seems just so much easier to die. I am guilty of what others did. I am guilty of what others didn&#8217;t do. I am guilty of what I never intended to say and never said, but what others thought I meant. I am guilty of not understanding how very guilty I am. I [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":714,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[13,4],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-1475","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-marc-grober","category-social-welfare"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/opinion.alaskapolicy.net\/pardonme\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1475","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/opinion.alaskapolicy.net\/pardonme\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/opinion.alaskapolicy.net\/pardonme\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/opinion.alaskapolicy.net\/pardonme\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/714"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/opinion.alaskapolicy.net\/pardonme\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=1475"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/opinion.alaskapolicy.net\/pardonme\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1475\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1479,"href":"https:\/\/opinion.alaskapolicy.net\/pardonme\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1475\/revisions\/1479"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/opinion.alaskapolicy.net\/pardonme\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=1475"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/opinion.alaskapolicy.net\/pardonme\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=1475"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/opinion.alaskapolicy.net\/pardonme\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=1475"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}